Britney Spears: 'I felt like a robot' during pop career peak
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Key Takeaways
Pop icon Britney Spears has opened up about the psychological toll of her years at the top of the music industry, revealing in a candid Instagram post that she felt like ‘a robot’ during the peak of her career. The singer, best known for global hits including 'Toxic', described years of forced performances and public appearances that she says stripped away her sense of self.
In Her Own Words
In a lengthy note shared on her Instagram account, Spears wrote: “Let’s just say I’ve actually changed big time. I honestly can’t believe I used to be able to perform in front of so many people. Good lord. I’m so sensitive and proud of myself for shutting all that down, ‘cause for too many years it was forced.”
She went on to describe the physical symptoms of anxiety she experienced during meet-and-greet events, recalling how she would suffer from asthma attacks and uncontrollable shaking if required to meet more than 10 people at a time. “She could see in my eyes how scared I would get,” she wrote of her longtime assistant Felicia Culotta. “My dad Jamie Spears had me meeting 70 people, I think, during that time. I lost the sensitivity of my soul. And it literally hurt. I felt like a robot.”
The Shy Person Behind the Superstar
Spears revealed that she is, by nature, a ‘painfully shy’ person who spent much of her career concealing that reality from the public. She says she is now grateful to no longer have to mask who she truly is.
“I think during that time I lost a sacredness I used to have with people because I was secretly very sensitive and painfully shy. I miss my real relationship I used to have with people. Honestly, I felt like a robot, a machine. And thank the lord it’s over,” she added.
The Weight of Forced Stardom
Spears’ disclosure adds fresh detail to a narrative that has been building since her conservatorship ended in November 2021. Her memoir and subsequent social media posts have consistently painted a picture of an artist who felt controlled rather than celebrated. The reference to her father Jamie Spears organising overwhelming meet-and-greet schedules is notable, given that he served as her court-appointed conservator for over 13 years.
This comes amid broader public conversation about the mental health of performers who are thrust into superstardom at a young age, a discussion that has gained momentum across the entertainment industry in recent years.
What Has Changed
Spears has been candid about her transformation since stepping away from the spotlight. She says she has ‘changed big time’ and now prioritises her emotional wellbeing over public performance. Her post signals a continued process of reclaiming her identity on her own terms, a journey she appears determined to document publicly.