How Has Anshula Kapoor's Grief Transformed Her Mind and Heart?
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Key Takeaways
- Grief is a lifelong journey that evolves.
- Loss changes how we perceive joy and good news.
- Establishing routines can help manage feelings of chaos.
- Self-reflection is crucial for finding comfort.
- Anger and ache can coexist in the grieving process.
Mumbai, Nov 8 (NationPress) The sister of Bollywood star Arjun Kapoor, Anshula Kapoor, opened up about how grief has fundamentally changed her brain and heart. She expressed that one never truly moves on from grief, especially the deep pain from losing a parent; instead, "you just grow around it".
Anshula, who experienced the loss of her mother, Mona Kapoor, in 2012, wrote on her social media, "It’s been over a decade, and grief still finds new ways to show up."
"It’s altered how I love, how I rest, and how I perceive the world. Some days it’s calm, while on others, it feels overwhelming (sic)."
“It’s a chaotic experience - this ongoing tug-of-war between gratitude for the loved ones still with us and the sorrow of her absence. So, I started writing. The anger. The guilt. The barriers I've constructed. The way good news now feels different. Because grief never truly ends; it evolves. These are the ways it has shaped me," she elaborated.
The daughter of filmmaker Boney Kapoor shared how her mind and heart have transformed after the loss of her mother.
She highlighted, "Good news doesn't carry the same joy as it used to. The first person I’d want to share it with isn't here, making every significant life moment feel diminished."
Anshula also disclosed, "I now have an intense need for control. After enduring chaos that shatters you, I cling to plans, lists, and routines, which make life feel a bit more stable."
She mentioned, "I’ve learned to be my own sanctuary. When I seek comfort, I often withdraw into myself."
Anshula confessed that she feels anger towards individuals with their mothers and also harbors self-directed resentment for that feeling.
She articulated, "It’s not jealousy; it’s an ache masquerading as anger," she wrote.
From erecting walls for self-protection to experiencing more challenging farewells, feeling older than her years, and struggling to trust others, she vividly described the myriad ways grief alters a person at their core.
Anshula concluded by stating that she has stopped waiting for healing, saying, "Some wounds are not meant to heal completely, and I’ve recognized that grief is an ongoing process that we confront, even after a decade of losing a parent."